Over It

The concert was great!! I had soo much fun! Only thing that I wish The Fray did more was engage the crowd. There wasn't a whole lot of that. Oh well. I still had a blast though!I could not bring my camera in, so I did not get to take any photos of the event...POO on that!

Yesterday gave me ANOTHER reason why I should (and I am) leave my job...

Reason number 5941641258054554874518426485184957841:

My boss's boss, Karen, comes in yesterday to give us all our pay stubs. She comes up to my desk and starts looking through the pile for mine. She looks at me and says "You're Jillian, right??"

I just looked at her with the "you are such a dumb b*tch" look and said "uhhh no...it's Tasha." She responds with "Ohh yeahhh..." The thing that pisses me off the most about that is that I've been working in this department since December and I've worked on projects for her AND SHE STILL DOESN'T KNOW MY NAME?!?!?!?! WTF!

So being that was sooo unprofessional of her, I am going to start being unprofessional as well and say "F-it! I am not doing crap this last week that I am here." I am so over this place...

Baby's First Concert

That's right folks! I have NEVER been to a concert in all my 23 (almost 24) years of life. Tonight, Boyfriend, Shawn, and I, along with some other friends, are going to see The Fray in concert. I am totally pumped about this event.

Number 1...I'm about to join the concert goers club. Everytime I tell people I have never been to a concert, they gasp and say "OMG! You've never been?!!? I've been to (insert number of concerts here)!" I get this EVERY time!

Number 2...I have found a band that I don't mind having to listen to from beginning to end. I LOVE The Fray's CD and I'm sure this concert will be good!

Number 3...Boyfriend and I will get to do something together that I have never experienced before, especially right before he leaves for Rhode Island.

I will definitely post pics of the event!

A Free Woman

I GOT A NEW JOB!!!!

Woo-hoo!!! After all the job searching and praying to find something, Iit's finally happened! You can't imagine how excited I am! I am finally going to be free of this hell hole in 2 weeks! I start on May 14th. The company and the people I'll be working for are great and I know this job is going to direct my career in the right direction.

In other GOOD news, Shawn and I finally found a place for us to live. We're really excited and I am mostly excited that there will be a yard for Sassy to play in. So we'll be living on "Wisteria Lane" in a month and a half! Yay!

The Open Toed Shoe Pledge

My mom sent me this email and I thought I would share with you all. It's definitely a pledge EVERY woman should make right before sandal season. Honestly, this pledge should be made year round...

The Open Toed Shoe Pledge
As a member of the Cute Girl Sisterhood, I pledge to follow the Rules when wearing sandals and other open-toe shoes:

• I promise to always wear sandals that fit. My toes will not hang over and touch the ground, nor will my heels spill over the backs. And the sides and tops of my feet will not pudge out between the straps.


• I will go polish-free or vow to keep the polish fresh, intact and chip-free. I will not cheat and just touch up my big toe.


• I will sand down any mounds of skin before they turn hard and yellow.


• I will shave the hairs off my big toe.


• I won't wear pantyhose even if my misinformed girlfriend, coworker, mother, sister tells me the toe seam really will stay under my toes if I tuck it there.


• If a strap breaks, I won't duct-tape, pin, glue or tuck it back into place hoping it will stay put. I will get my shoe fixed or toss it.
  I will not live in corn denial; rather I will lean on my good friend Dr. Scholl's if my feet need him.


• I will resist the urge to buy jelly shoes at Payless for the low, low price of $4.99 even if my feet are small enough to fit into the kids' sizes. This is out of concern for my safety, and the safety of others. No one can walk properly when standing in a pool of sweat and I would hate to take someone down with me as I fall and break my ankle.


• I will take my toe ring off toward the end of the day if my toes swell and begin to look like Vienna sausages.


• I will be brutally honest with my girlfriend/sister/coworker when she asks me if her feet are too ugly to wear sandals. Someone has to tell her that her toes are as long as my fingers and no sandal makes creepy feet look good.


• I will promise if I wear flip flops that I will ensure that they actually flip and flop, making the correct noise while walking and I will swear NOT to slide or drag my feet while wearing them.


• I will promise to throw away any white/off-white sandals that show signs of wear... nothing is tackier than dirty white sandals.

(What's even worse is that I actually KNOW a girl from my previous office that has feet like this....:::Gag::::)

Competition

Ever had a friend that always seems to be in competition with you? It's never been spoken about but you just know that deep inside, the person is trying their hardest to come up on top. I know a few people that are like this. I don't understand the whole thing.

I have found people to compete over friends, material things (i.e. clothes, purses, make up, etc.), family members, boyfriends, and the list goes on and on. Who cares what you're mom said about this and about that. It doesn't necessarily mean it's right. Who cares if your child went to this college over that college? I don't see what the point in all that unnecessary drama. Can someone tell me?

If I find that someone is trying to compete with me about something, I just roll my eyes and laugh inside. It's almost flattering you're THAT jealous I have something going on that you might not, but seriously, what grade are we in? I don't care what you have and if you have something I like, I am going to compliment you. Unless you are fishing for a compliment. I can't stand when people expect you to compliment them...when they do I just ignore it and never dish it out. I will give you a compliment because I WANT to give you one, not because YOU want me to.

So back to the topic at hand, do you have a friend who is always trying to compete with you?

Our Thoughts are With You...

I am just in shock to what happened yesterday at Virginia Tech. Why would someone take innocent lives? It is just so horrific and scary. My thoughts go out to all the families and friends of the students and teachers who lost their lives yesterday. Makes you really think about what is really important in life...

Case of the Ex---Part 2

So I decided not to call up the Ex about contacting my family because I didn't want the unnecessary drama that came along with that.

My mom calls me Thursday and says "Hey, you should call Ex's mom because the grandma died this week and it would be nice of you to just call her and express your condolences." I'm like "Uhhh...ok." I mean I did spend 2 years with this guy and really became close to his family. So I think 'Ok no harm in just calling her up real quick...I won't have to talk to him anyways.' Then I remember that I no longer have her number and that I would need to call Ex up to get it. I'm dreading this and so it takes me a day before I do it. I really didn't want to speak to him. Here goes the conversation:

Me (in a monotoned voice): Hey Ex! It's Tasha.

Ex (sounding WAY too excited): Heyyyy Tasha! How are you?

Me: I'm fine. Hey, I heard about Mother (that's what we called her)...sorry to hear about your loss.

Ex: Thanks!

(I interrupt him before he can say anything else)

Me: Can I have your mom's number so I can give her a call? I don't have her number anymore.

Ex (probably irritated that I wouldn't let him say anything else): Uhhh sure.. it's ____.

Me: Thanks! Take care!

(Click!) I did NOT want to have a conversation with him obviously.

I called his mom and probably talked to her for like 15-20 minutes. We just caught up on things and then she proceeds to throw in Ex's name in there. She tells me how he's a changed person and he still talks about me all the time. She then proceeds to ask if I have a boyfriend now. Of course, I tell her yes and I could just hear the disappoint in her voice. Honestly, it's good to hear that he has changed his life for the better but he put me through so much crap and nothing that's said now can change the way I will forever feel about that relationship. I don't forget things. I have a boyfriend now who treats me the way I have always (and should) dreamed of being treated. Why take a step backwards?

Later that afternoon, Ex texts me and says it was good to hear from me and he hopes I am doing well. I didn't want to be bitchy and not respond, so I send a text back saying it was good to hear he was doing well and to take care. OK when someone says "take care" that usually means the conversation is OVER....well, not to the Ex. He sends a text again a few hours later and asks if I can accept pictures on my phone. I reply with a simple "Yes." I go to work that night at Champps and when I get off at 12 a.m. I have a pic of my phone of his 2 dogs that I knew when they were puppies. I send a text back that says "Wow, they are big now! have a good night!"

AGAIN, he should have known that was the end of the texting. Nope! At this point, I am regretting ever replying to the first text! He sends another text asking what I am doing. I reply that I just got home from work. He probably sends 2 more texts after that one saying little inside jokes we used to have when we were together. I finally just start ignoring him. This is going way too far and he is trying to pull me back in.

The next day, which is Saturday, I go to Fayetteville to see my mom and catch up with a friend. He sends me a new text around lunchtime asking if I had 2 jobs. I replied "Yes" and he replies back and asks what I am doing. Throughout the day, he keeps sending texts with more inside jokes from the time we were together. I just ignore. Why is he doing this??? I am so irritated at this point and want to kick myself for ever responding to any of the texts. He is trying his hardest to pull me back in by bringing up the good memories we had together.

Boyfriend is gone to South Carolina this whole time to work for a golf tournament in Hilton Head. I didn't tell him about any of the messages Ex sent me because I didn't get enough time to speak with him while he's been gone. Boyfriend comes back today, so I will be able to get his undivided attention.

I want to tell him about it all because I don't ever keep anything from Boyfriend. But I also kind of feel like I should leave it alone because there is nothing there, especially on my end. But then I feel like if I don't tell Boyfriend about it, I am hiding it from him or something. Uggghh what's a girl to do?

I know...it's been a hot minute since I've posted. I could lie and say "Gosh I have just been so busy" or something along those lines....but honestly, I have had a case of writer's block. I have nothing interesting going on and life has been pretty boring. I have been sick for the past few days and I am hating all the freaking pollen!!

Work still sucks BUT....I do have a second interview next week! I'm crossing my fingers that this is my ticket out of hell! We shall see...

It's getting closer to the time that Boyfriend leaves for Rhode Island. Uggghh I don't want him to go (I'm just being selfish) but I am happy for him.

Sorry guys, I know this post sucks but I'm just letting you know I'm still alive. Hopefully, I can get out of this funk and have more interesting things to blog about.